Well the lesson of the day is: You can't be a working mom and a full time mom!
Ultimately since I'm a working mom I am going to miss things. I'm going to miss little moments each day with my son. I'm not going to lie it kills me a little bit.
This morning when my amazing nanny arrived and we were talking about her day with my son yesterday she mentioned how they had a wonderful walk together yesterday and how he loved the swings.
That is the moment I felt like I had been kicked in the gut - the swings! That was the first time my son had been to the park or on the swings and it wasn't with me. I missed that amazing moment when your child experiences something for the first time.
It took all of my strength not to burst into tears right then and there but instead to nod with a smile and take my coffee up to my office to sit down to have a little cry and write a blog post.
|This is where I'm currently cursing my work|
Do you ever think that nobody really tells you about how hard it is to be a mom? Seriously on a daily basis I feel like the rug is pulled out from underneath me.
I called my mom for words of comfort - she was a working mom so I thought she would no how to talk me off the proverbial working mom cliff. She had "chin up" advice. Here is what she said:
|My little due|
- I'm working to make a better life for my son
- I am a better mom because I am a working mom - it's what makes me, me
- Having another person in Harrison's life who loves him and cares for him is a positive not a negative
- My son will not hold this against me, he probably won't remember that I missed that little moment because I'm always there for the big moments.
SO I'm going to try and take her advice and get my work done so when 5 pm rolls around I can get on the floor with my son and be a mum.
For all of you mums struggling a little today I tip my cup of coffee at you - you aren't alone!